CN Tower Before Friday Night's MRI

Cass had a very long and sweet nap yesterday afternoon. I checked on her and prayed at her bed side. I asked for God's mercy on her and our family...do we really need to go through such suffering to make us come close to Him? How could we experience peace while we are watching our beloved child suffering in her sickness and battling with all these, many many aggressive tumors, growing all along her spine and in other part of her body? They are invading her body day by day....how could I be strong for my daughter? I wiped away my tears and stayed at her bed side as I knew that she'd wake up any minute. Daddy came in to check on her as well. Then Caca woke up with a sweet smile for us.

Daddy said we could go up to the CN Tower before the MRI appointment at 8:30 pm. She was excited about it even though she's still too weak to go out. We made a quick visit to the top of the CN Tower. This was Ca's first time to be up in the Tower and she was happy to make it finally. But she was not feeling well and was vomiting afterwards.

Cass on CN Tower

 










Staying still for more than one and a half hours for an MRI is not an easy task at all due to the loud and noisy sounds and the hot air in the tunnel of the machine. I've stayed once with her in the MRI room and I felt terrible and stressful with the loud sound in the room but for that time I was only there for about 30-45 minutes. Caca vomited again right after the MRI was done. We left Sickkids around midnight. The whole family prayed together before she went to sleep. We all so thank God for giving her and our family a little fun time going up to the CN Tower before the MRI. It was a very quick visit but we were all so thankful for that. We continue to ask for God's healing power and mercy upon Caca; for God's wisdom to the doctors to review all the MRIs. The upcoming one will be next Monday as they will be deciding her next step for her treatment and the chemo drugs they will be giving her. Aaron prayed for the gentle care and wisdom to take care of Caca on a daily basis as sometimes we are so careless.

My family and I now realize that we must appreciate the little things in our lives... just a little smile or a little loving note is our strength to go on through day. Being able to walk around the city and admire the beautiful things around and coming home to have the food from friends and families are God's grace and blessings to us for the day.